taking my own (stupid) advice

I've often repeated the advice that sometimes you have to write a lot just to get a little, and that writing itself is like a journey: you have to write a lot of crap just to get to the good stuff... but the good stuff would never have materialized in your head if you hadn't dreamt up the crap first. So there you go. Never feel bad about taking out an entire paragraph; just say "thank you for your time, you've been very helpful" and send it on its way. You're the boss. Fire at will.

That said, it's awfully depressing to spend hours writing something (ie. Airplane Disaster Dream #5) only to realize in the end that you just don't CARE about any of it until the end. Yes, I realize that I really need to slow down the part where the airplane crashes and add more gory details, but I don't WANT to--that's not the POINT. I'm not interested in what happens to the other people on the airplane because it's my dream and when I wake up, I'm the only one who will remember it (or not remember, as the case may be).

So I'm going to try it again, as an interview this time and in the first person voice--something I saw Louise Gluck do once in a poem I can't remember.

This is me acting like a mature writer. Snip snip. Delete.